I'd rather be a weed.

What are weeds? They have color, stem, and life. Who hasn't picked up a dandelion, made a wish, and cast it away into the wind, as if the universe could somehow make it possible? They provide hope.
What are weeds? Simply a willful flower, with a mind of it's own. It's determination to take root, make change happen. It locks itself into the ground, only to come back over and over again determining to take root once again.

What are flowers? Pretty, useless things. Providing occasional insight with the, "He loves me, He loves me not..." Only later, to provide despair when the answer you are searching for is not offered.

As for me, I'd rather be a weed.

11:12

She wished for many things when the clock hit 11:11. It was childish and she realized that it had no meaning, wishes don't come true that easily. However, everyday when that clock reached those numbers, she fantasized and wished and hoped like a child. Her wishes had grown more elaborate as the days passed. Her happiness enveloped her and with that came more dreams and more wishes. However, one day, her happiness came crumbling down. A storm came and it grew more furious with each passing moment. As her car faced the treacherous roads, it whipped and spun with the wind. Nothing she could do could control it. With terrified eyes, she looked at the clock. "11:10," is what it read. In that instant, a gush of cold winter air swung at her car, pushing her off the road. Her steering wheel was locked and fear froze her. As she opened her eyes to examine the wreckage, she stared at the clock. "11:12," was all that it glowed. She had missed her moment.

The internet and texting has stolen our integrity.

Many people are unsure of what this foreign word, "integrity", means. Let me give you a few of my favorite definitions.
It has to do with perceived consistency of actions, values, methods, measures, principles, expectations and outcome. In ethics, integrity is regarded as the quality of having an intuitive sense of honesty and truthfulness in regard to the motivations for one's actions.

The internet has stolen this from us. Texting has stolen this from us. It is so much easier to type, text, or write all the things that a person is "feeling"; however, when it comes down to acting upon these feelings, they are different. I cannot tell you how many times people have said something to me and have proved to be false.

What happened to the times when people say exactly what they mean, with no bullshit attached? What happened to the days where people did what they say they would do? What has happened to people's integrity, honestly, truthfulness, and consistency?
I pity those who can text and write and use the internet as an outsource for their feelings. I pity those who can use a "status update" to tell everyone how they feel, but never talk to the person that it is meant for. Be a person of integrity. Say what you feel, do what you say, be truthful and do not deceive those that care about you the most.

Make-up tutorials and haul.

I've been watching makeup tutorials.
2 thoughts ran through my mind.
One: I want to know if people would watch my hair/makeup tutorials if I made them on youtube. Hmm. (more hair versus makeup). And two, I thought I would share some of my favorite things that I've been wearing and using, religiously, for all those girls out there who like trying out new pretty things as much as I do. Wooh. Here they are:

1. "Glow all the way" - by Hard Candy

I actually found this product through my best friend when we were getting ready to go out one night. I use it on my forearms and chest area. I really enjoy it because it adds a "lively shimmer" to your body. It's not expensive, it's something that you can pick up at Walmart for about $5 or $6. I highly recommend this if you want to add an extra something to whatever you're wearing.

2. False eyelashes- These are something that I rarely wear (mostly because I'm mentally handicapped when attempting to put these bad boys on), but when I do wear them, I absolutely love them. Even if you use the "natural" ones versus the dramatic fake eyelashes, they really make you feel pretty and add a dramatic emphasis to your eyes.

3. "Glow Daily Moisturizer"- by Ulta

I recently just bought this product...at Ulta, obviously. Why I like it? Well, it adds a small tan without the smell and without you turning orange. In the description, it states that it is more for evening out the skin tone rather than giving you a tan. It's true. If you want to add a small, healthy glow to your skin with a combination moisturizer, I highly recommend this.

4. "Secret Weapon" - by Frizz-Ease

I only use this product when I have just finished blow-drying my hair. I hate the way my hair looks after I blow-dry, mostly dry and brittle. I put a tiny amount on my hand and smooth it through the ends of my hair. I also like to use this product after curling my hair. It makes the curls more bouncy and doesn't add that matte finish when you hairspray.

5. "Miracle Leave-in Product"- by It's a 10

I have 4 words for you. This saved my hair. I have done every possible damage imaginable to my hair. From, stripping my hair of red color, to bleaching my hair, to dying, to straightening..etc. (you get the picture). I had to grow a completely new head of hair and have been working on that for the past year. If your hair is damaged beyond repair and you think that you will never be able to grow healthy hair again, spritz this on while your hair is wet, avoid blow-drying, and you'll definitely see results.

Alright, that's all I have for right now. I urge my other bloggers to do the same. Let me know some of the things that you use on a daily basis that you absolutely adore. I like learning about new products. If you liked this, let me know. I might do some youtube vids. :)

Travel.

I'm sitting at work, effortlessly scanning through the endless world of the internet.
Often, I find myself wishing to be other places, i.e. Bali, Finland, Iceland, etc. Naturally, I'm looking up travel deals for these places. I like to find out prices of things, planning my fake vacations that might turn to reality in about...30 years. All of this fantasies led me to this one webpage.  A family-owned, family-operated island, off the coast of Honduras, called Sandy Cay, which you can rent for $100/night (minimum of 2 nights). Do you hear me? You can rent...a private island (about the size of a football field)...for $100...

I immediately looked up airfare.

I want to go.

I will never be fully satisfied in living in one place for the rest of my life. If I could cram in as much exploration before I'm too old and tired to walk, I would still seek out adventures in my HoverRound. I want nothing more than to see what the world has to offer. Moscow, Reykjavik, Saariselka, Tokyo, Sydney, Bali, Utila town: I'm coming for you.

Reinvention.

I like to reinvent my blog from time to time. Something that fits my personality or my feelings at this moment. I'm sure most of you are tired of it and are saying to yourselves, "Katie...please figure it out."

Well, that is exactly what I plan to do. I'm reinventing my blog into my therapy. It will be my therapist, and everyone else can diagnose me. I have no idea what this new idea might bring up. Old thoughts, new feelings, past actions, previous experiences. I hope that I can keep all entertained.

Thankful.

I know it's past Thanksgiving and usually people share what they are thankful for around that time, however, when it comes to the month of December, I can't help but realize how great life is. So tonight, I make my list. The list that shares with you what I am thankful for.

-I am thankful for my job, it's a great opportunity and putting it on my resume definitely looks great in the long run. Also, having a paycheck guaranteed every other week is a plus.
-I am thankful that I am able to live rent free in a house.
-I am thankful for my POS car. It lets me express myself with all the obnoxious amounts of peace signs that cover it.
-I am thankful for my parents. They have put up with me through good times and bad.
-I am thankful for my 21st birthday coming up, it's been long awaited. :)
-I'm thankful for my friends, each and every one of them loves me for who I am, not the person I try to be on a regular basis.
-I am thankful for my intellect. It gets me by on a daily basis.
-I am thankful for all my basic "necessities" that some people go without. (i.e. cell phone, clothes, etc.)
-Most of all, I am thankful for my life. I was given a second chance almost a year ago, and however dark that time of my life might've been, I wouldn't give up the memories I've made or the people I've met in the past year.

It has restored my faith. I may not fully believe in Christianity like I used to or God, but I definitely believe that some higher power out there loves me and wants what's best for me. I just have to learn to embrace that.