Best Friends?

You were never a friend. You were never the person I could turn to when I really needed to talk. You're absolutely awful. The moment that something happens, you not only scurry away, you completely backhand me across the face...not finding out the truth and not wanting to know what's going on with me. You don't even try to deny what the accusation is. You don't "care" about me and you never did. That whole group of "friends" that I had, was a lie. You were not my friends. We were party buddies. We were only friends when it was convenient and when we were bored. I'm sorry that I wasted time thinking that you were my best friend. Best friend's don't turn away so easily. You scampered off. You fled. Things weren't kittens and butterflies anymore so you decided that it wasn't worth putting forth the effort anymore. We had disagreements and I tried to fix it, despite my better judgement and the advice that others gave me.

I look at you and I'm disgusted at what you've become. Do you realize I tried to do the best for you? I didn't want you to get into trouble and I wanted you to be healthy. None of that mattered to you unless someone was buying the beer. So go ahead. Sit around. Waste your money, your parents money, and any of the other money you have mooched off of other people. Go ahead and do that and watch yourself get bigger and bigger. You need to grow up. You're not energetic like you used to be. You're not happy like you used to be. You're alone, and you know it. You have no one there that really WANTS to be your friend...not unless you are partying together. The person that I knew was happy. This person? They're dumb. They're a stoner. They're a bully. They're unhealthy. They're a drunk. This is not the person that I knew.

You don't have a personality. And if you do? I'm sure it's a great one. I know the person that was "one-on-one" with me...and I liked her. But honestly, I can't even trust if that was you either. You're not unique, you're not fun, you just blend. You blend to the personality that's around you. I feel bad for you, because you're never going to know true joy and happiness. You are never going to know love, friendship, or butterflies.

You don't know what you want out of life. You can't party forever and you can't drink away your feelings. I want you to change into the person that I knew. Not this. I don't like what you've become and if you parents can't say this to you and can't see who you are, then I will. I don't want this life for you.