The Wrong Place, The Wrong Time.

This all might not make much sense. This all might not flow well together, but I want to get it all out there.

I belive my entire life has been a collection of "the wrong place at the wrong time" moments. It's a compilation of instances in which I always end up saying, "If only that had happened later on down the road." I've tumbled down this rabbit hole and all I want to do is climb out and continue reading my book. I don't want to go through the looking glass. I don't want to go through the adventure. I don't want to find the key that unlocks a certain door. I simply want to get out.

If only I had met him 10 years down the road, when we both had a little more wisdom. If only I had stopped myself that morning. If only I learned to keep my mouth shut. If only I hadn't ran that red light. If only I had said "no". If only I had learned to be myself, sooner. If only I could stop lying. If only, if only, if only. The "what if?" looms over my head every morning when I wake up, and every night when I go to bed.



Well they're just thoughts so go ahead and speak.