Diary

I have been keeping this blog as a sort of diary, and the reason that I profess so much of my thoughts on here is because it's simply...refreshing. It's like spilling secrets without actually seeing the reaction on people's faces. It's like having a conversation and getting a whole story out without the interruption. I love it. I feel the need to explain to some the reason that I keep this blog, my reasoning behind talking about things that should be kept to myself.

For one, I don't like keeping things to myself. I kind of go crazy. I've tried before. It either gets blurted out at inopportune moments or it gets talked about and said completely wrong. Do you ever have those moments? The moments where you just say the wrong thing at the wrong time. Yeah? Well, I'm a professional when it comes to those moments. Believe me. On here, it's different. I can reread my thoughts and think to myself, "Is this really what I was trying to say?" I can delete and cancel thoughts that don't apply to me anymore or were just worded the wrong way...and I can even delete thoughts that I regret exposing.

Secondly, I like being able to display my thoughts because I like being an open book. I like people knowing about me. I like people checking up on me. Just the thought of someone looking at my blog and saying, "What's Katie up to?" puts a smile on my face. One of the best feelings in the world is overhearing someone saying nice things about you. I like to believe that when people read this, that's what they say.

I know it doesn't make all that much sense, especially to those who keep their private lives, well..private, but I don't like to be shut off from people, so I reciprocate. I don't shut myself off from others. Never expect me to. I will always give second chances, I will always reward thirds. No matter how many times someone ends up screwing me over, I will let them in, time after time. It's vulnerable, it's dumb, but people will never stop surprising you. With all of that said, come on in...and let's have a closer look.