I can't exactly describe it to you.

...but I'll try.

I no longer wish I was a different person. I no longer wish I had a different life. I no longer wish that I didn't exist. It's because of him. He's fixed me. He took me out of that dark hole and showed me this beautiful world, where there was so much to do and so much to see. He cares about me. He truly does. He looks me in the eyes and always means what he says. And for the first time, I can look in his, and reiterate what he said, meaning every word.

I feel weird not walking next to him, my hand feels empty. I immediately want to grab it, but when he's not there, I feel naked. He's my best friend. We can talk about anything. We can do stupid things together. We can make each other's skin hum. He's my mister.

I've found my life again.